Today as I was looking at a beautiful September sky with fluffy clouds skidding along a bright sun…..a memory came rushing back to me! Jadyn used to occasionally get these overwhelming feelings of gratefulness, happiness and joy. Usually it was when I was driving her to dance class. She would randomly say, “mom here it comes again! That crazy happy thankful feeling that gives me goose bumps”. It did not happen often, but it was obvious when it came over her teenage self!!!
I would laugh and tell her I was glad she felt that way, because with teenagers it is rare. This actually went on for years. I always thought it was a bit strange but those of you who knew Jadyn can maybe envision this?
So as I look again at the glorious Fall sky, I had the overwhelming feeling that she must feel like that ALL the time now! Pure unadulterated joy….with no anxiety or stress or pain or sadness or insecurity or negative thoughts or bad feelings! I think God reminded of this as we face the one year anniversary of Jadyn going to Heaven. HE knows it is excruciating for us, and that we are reliving the pain. Yet the Holy Spirit is the great comforter after all. And He speaks truth to our minds and souls. I know it was a sweet reminder from HIM!
Thanks for your continued prayers at this tough time…
Kristin
“Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy”………..Jesus’ words in John 16:22